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Sunday, November 7th, 2004
2:51 am	i la la love you its 2:51AM and i jsut hung up with you all i can say is you make me so fuckin happy and I'm so in love with you g.o.o.d.n.i.g.h.t <33 time to knock the fuck out Current Mood: sleepy (3 said this is a ||fairy tale romance)
Sunday, October 17th, 2004
9:04 pm	This weekend was random . . .like always. Jenel had a softball tounament in Santa Barbara which is about 4 hours away from here, so at like 11 on Friday night i decided that i was gonna drive down and surprise her. I woke up later so instead of leaving at like 5 in the morning i didnt leave till 7.. . .but i still made it before the 1st game was over, then there were 2 more. I had planned on driving back after the games but since her parents love me soo much they insisted that i stay with them. . .so i did. That night we went for a walk to the pier and on the way back it started POURING on us, we were soaked. . .and Jenel jumping in EVERY puddle sure didnt help Then we watched SAVED. . .real random, but entertaining Then me and Jenel went to bed pretty early cause she was wore out. well we didnt go to sleep right away. . .we "talked" for a bit. . then we went to bed. She was suppose to have games today but they got cancelled cause the fields were all wet. . .so we went to breakfast and we said our "goodbyes" and we went our separate ways :( ( RANDOM ) I love you Current Mood: tired Current Music: Nelly- "Nobody Knows" (10 said this is a ||fairy tale romance)
Thursday, October 14th, 2004
6:29 pm	I'm sick, i was up all last night writing a paper, and i had a midterm today. . . .BUT thats ok cause today is still a good day cause . . . its out 1 MONTH. . .I <3 you babe. . .you mean so much to me xoxoxo Current Mood: blah Current Music: a mix CD from non other than YOU (2 said this is a ||fairy tale romance)
Tuesday, October 12th, 2004
11:55 pm	"Lets Be Us Again"- Lonestar Tell me what I have to do tonight 'Cause I'd do anything to make it right Let's be us again I'm sorry for the way I lost my head I don't know why I said the things I said Let's be us again Here I stand With everything to lose And all I know is I don't want to ever see the end Baby please, I'm reaching out for you Won't you open up your heart and let me come back in Let's be us again Oh us again Look at me, I'm way past pride Isn't there some way that we can try To be us again Even if it takes a while I'll wait right here until I see that smile That says we're us again Here I stand With everything to lose And all I know is I don't want to ever see the end Baby please, I'm reaching out for you Won't you open up your heart and let me come back in Let's be us Baby baby what would I do I can't imagine life without you Here I stand With everything to lose And all I know is I don't want to ever see the end Baby please, I'm reaching out for you Won't you open up your heart and let me come back in Oh, here I am I'm reaching out for you So won't you open up your heart and let me come back in Let's be us again Oh let's be us again x.o.x.o.x.o. Current Mood: depressed (1 said this is a ||fairy tale romance)
Monday, October 11th, 2004
11:05 pm	This sucks I really dont understand why this has to happen to me. . .not once but twice. I find someone who is exactly what i've been looking for and that i fall for except there is one MAJOR problem. . .there is 350 miles keeping us apart. Since i did this last year with someone else i went into this knowing it was going to be hard. . really hard, but up until tonight i hadn't really realized just how hard its going to be. Since we've been going out we havent gone more than 2 weeks without seeing each other because i've been driving home a lot, but tonight she told me that, "i probably need to stay up here for a while and get use to things." Even though i know that thats probably a good idea and i know that its not because she doesnt want to see me, hearing her say those words still left me with nothing to say, and i couldnt help but cry. Thanksgiving is a long ways away and it not that i dont think that i can last that long;I have no doubt in my mind that i can and will wait as long as i have to. I'm not saying i dont think she can or is willing to wait till then either, but i can only be certain of how i feel, i dont know all of the thoughts that cross her mind. I hope to God that she does wait till then, but at the same time i feel like i'm being selfish. I mean these are her high school years. Shes suppose to be having fun and hooking up with people, not having to wait for someone who is 6 hours away to come home. I would hate for her to feel like she missed out on something. I would rather me be alone then have her regret something. All i want is for her to be happy. . . "Every time I see your face, my heart smiles Every time it feels so good, it hurts sometimes" I hate that i cant see you everyday. i hate that i can kiss you goodnight every night. I hate that i cant go watch your games. I hate that when you have a bad day i cant be there to make you feel better. I hate that i cant jsut hold your hand or lay with you whenever i want. I hate that it seems like right when i get to see you i have to say "goodbye" . . .BUT YOURE WORTH IT I dunno, i'm in a really weird mood right now. I have so many different thoughts running through my head. I would hate for distance to be the reason things end up not working out. I dont think we're at that point, but i think that when the end does come, that will be the reason. and i think thats a fucked up way to end if thats the only thing wrong in the relationship, but you can only stand to be away from the person you love for so long before it gets to be too much. I'm not even close to that point though, and i hope that you arent either. "Everything"- Lifehouse [find me here speak to me i want to feel you i need to hear you you are the light that is leading me to the place where i find peace again you are the strength that keeps me walking you are the hope that keeps me trusting you are the life to my soul you are my purpose you are everything and how can i stand here with you and not be moved by you would you tell me how could it be any better than this you calm the storms you give me rest you hold me in your hands you won't let me fall you still my heart and you take my breath away would you take me in would you take me deeper now 'cause you're all i want you are all i need you are everything everything] xoxoxo goodnight i love you Current Mood: sad Current Music: "Miss You Love"- Silverchair (8 said this is a ||fairy tale romance)
Tuesday, October 5th, 2004
9:42 am	** For YOU ** This makes me think about you. . . "Always You" - Amber Pacific I'll hold a place for you and I Inside my heart for you and I I won't forget these tears I cried With every year that passes by And I can't sleep without you And I can't breathe anymore Good times last forever I'll keep my heart with yours For every minute I am gone (I am gone) Swear you'll never leave me I'll be there every time In your heart and in your eyes I'll give it up this time again Some things are better left unsaid And all I have are lasting dreams Our word's worth more this time it seems And I can't sleep without you And I can't breathe anymore Good times last forever I'll keep my heart with yours For every minute I am gone (I am gone) Swear you'll never leave me I'll be there every time In your heart and in your eyes Good times last forever I'll keep my heart with yours For every minute I am gone (I am gone) Swear you'll never leave me I'll be there every time In your heart and in your eyes (In your eyes) Good times last forever I'll keep my heart with yours For every minute I am gone (I am gone) Swear you'll never leave me I'll be there every time In your heart and in your eyes (In your eyes) In your eyes Current Mood: blah (2 said this is a ||fairy tale romance)
Sunday, October 3rd, 2004
5:47 am	wow i havent posted in forever. . .i havent been up to too much . . .i had mym soc midtern thisw eekn i think i kicked its ass. .. .dude this weekdend was like the forst weenkiedn i've been home in a long ass timw. . .thursday night we went to the student union to wahtch the [pres debate. . .then friuday nght james took me and danrema to dinner at Applebees then we went to hre movies to see Shark tale . . .it was real funny . ..today all tjhe girs went to the breach at SAntws cruz . ..it was really cold but it was fun. . .then we went to the SJSU football game . . .we won GO SPARTANS!!. . .then we wetn to Popeyes chicken .. .then at like 12:30 we met up with jessie and her firneds to drink. . ..my roomate and friends letft early but i satyed. . . .we ended up walking to thr "pink house" dont ask. . . .then at liek 5:30 we walked home. . .then we say a cop and he was tlaing us and he gave te other grils a ride hoeme . ..sp i rode along with him. . .it was soo tight we rode around san jose in a cop car. . .and the best part weas he knew we were drunk and didint care. . .then he dropped me off. . babe you should be getting up right now so imma call you and its 5:55 make a wihsh xoxoxoxo i hope your games go well today and you ply well. . . .i miss you soo much. . . ok i think its time for some sleep. . .night Current Mood: drunk Current Music: my roomate snoring (4 said this is a ||fairy tale romance)
Monday, September 20th, 2004
11:52 am	This past weekend was great. The only thing that sucked was having to say "goodbye" and drive away from your house. I can spend every minute of every day with you and still not get enough of you. I alway leave wanting more. You're great. . .but knowing you, you probably already know that haha. I hope you know how much you mean to me I hope you know how happy you make me I hope you know that i want you and only you I hope you dont want to fire me anytime soon hahah I hope that i can give you want you want I hope you feel somewhat the same Aye Aye Aye babe i miss you too damn much. . . but i guess the distance makes me appreciate every kiss a little more and just getting to lay with you in my arms You consume my thoughts every minute that i'm awake, and when i'm lucky, even when i'm dreaming at night. FINCH - Letters to You "Can't you see that i wanna be there with open arms It's empty tonight and i'm all alone Get me through this one Do you notice i'm gone? Where do you run to so far away? I want you to know that I miss you I miss you so I want you to know that I miss you I miss you so I'm writing again these letters to you on much I know But i'm not sleeping and you're not here The thought stops my heart Do you notice i'm gone? Where do you run to so far away? I want you to know that I miss you I miss you so I want you to know that I miss you I miss you so I want you to know that I miss you I miss you so I want you to know that I miss you I miss you so No more looking i've found her I want you to know that I miss you I miss you so I want you to know that I miss you I miss you so I want you to know that I miss you I miss you so I want you to know that I miss you I miss you so I'm gone away..." XoXoXo Current Mood: nervous Current Music: "Macy's Day Parade"- Green Day (7 said this is a ||fairy tale romance)
Wednesday, September 15th, 2004
3:49 pm	AYE AYE AYE First off i have say that "WE" are now official as of 11:59 last night :) It seems like everything in my life, accept #33 haha, is not going too well. Sooo much god damn drama with me and my parents all because i pierced my tongue. Its so dumb they wont call me, but i know they are soo pissed cause everyone they have talked to has called to tell me.. . .but they wont call me. i wish they would jsut call me, get mad at me and get over it. . .cause i'm going home this weekend and i dont want to deal with it. If we are gonna be fighting i'll just stay somewhere else. Me aunt and uncle already told me i can stay there whenever i want. My aunt is even making me my own key. I havent gone to class all day. I missed Soc and right now i'm supose to be in my Comm 20 class. . .fuck it. At 6 i have to go to handball. i cant not go cause didnt go last week. God i have so much shit to do tonight and before i leave tomorrow. i NEED to do laundry and a shit load of English hw. kk i'm gonna try and do sometihng productive. . . but dont count on it One more day babe!! xoxoxo Current Mood: stressed Current Music: Tiger Army (1 said this is a ||fairy tale romance)
Wednesday, September 8th, 2004
12:21 pm	I had a fuckin awesome weekend at home. . . THURSDAY we ended up leaving here at like 6:30 and i didnt get home till 12:30. After i dropped Nicole off in La Cinata i got pulled over. I was fuckin shitting my pants cause i was going 95 mph. They made me do a sobriety test and i told them i was soo sorry and that i was on my way home from college and i was jsut anxious to see my mom blah blah blah. . .and the whole time i was crying. The officer said he could impound my car, arrest me and give me a $1300 ticket. . . BUT he said since i told him the truth about how fast i was going and that i had never been pulled over that he would let me go. . .all i have to do it do some good things for others. Its amazing what crying can get you out of. Then when i pulled into my drive way my new car was there waiting for me. Its a white Scion XB with grey Scion decals on the sides. Its so cute. FRIDAY During the day i hung out Jenel. We went to In N Out and then we drove to the beach. Too bad we only had time to go pie at a gas station then we had to head back home cause we were going to Layola Marymount to watch Jenny play. After i dropped everyone off at home i went back to Jenels house to watch a movie. I guess it was sorta fun. ahahah j/k SATURDAY I went to Tash's house. Vanessa made me breakfast then we jsut hung out. Then i went and had sushi with the family. I gotta hang out with them a bit while im home or else i'd be in trouble. It was fun though. After dinner i was gonna go to a party with Ness and Tash, but it was in Long Beach and i had to be home at 1 so there was no point in going so. . . .again i went to Jenels house and we jsut hung out and watched more movies. SUNDAY Vanessa made me breakfast again. . .man o man she loves me ahah. then i went to the beach. we were having a big bon fire with my family and family friends. I swear to god ive never seen the beach so crowded in my life. I guess Huntington was closed cause of unhealthful water, so EVERYONE and their mom was trying to go to Bolsa Chica. We ended up finding a pit at the dog beach. I had to park like a mile and a half away. no lie. . .and it was hotter than hell. Jenel and her family were also at the beach so they dropped her off where we were. I didnt want her to come, but like she really wanted to be there so i was like what the hell ahahaha j/k It was fun, until she wouldnt stop splashing me aye aye aye soo annoying. then we played football and i had to let her win cause she cant stand to lose. i'm soo nice. After we went back to my aunts house and swam and relaxed in the jacuzzi. Then her mom called bitching that she had to go home. . .so AGAIN we went back to her house and watched some more movies. good time good times. MONDAY Unfortunately i had to come back home on monday. it was a long ass trip. it took like 7 hours cause there was mean ol traffic. TODAY (WEDNESDAY) not much accept i FINALLY pierced mt tongue. i was soo excited. God my mom is gonna KILL me. It was funny i did it like an hour before my speech class and i had to give a speech today. fuck it. . .now i have a shit load of hw to do AND i'm suppose to go to my handball class at 6 but i dont know if imma go. I MISS YOU BABEE!!!!!! Current Mood: sore Current Music: Michael Jackson. . .my roomate is playing it. . .i swear (5 said this is a ||fairy tale romance)
Thursday, September 2nd, 2004
5:41 pm	HOME!!! 562 HERE I COME!!! YAY I'M SO HAPPY TO BE GOING HOME. There are soo many people that i want to see. You would never think that you would ever miss Downey. . .but you actually do. I'm leaving in about 20 mins IF the three other people i'm taking are ready. . .they better be. Its gonna be a long ass night. i should be home by about 1 in the morning. Starbuck's Double Shots are going to be my best friend. Current Mood: excited Current Music: Owen (1 said this is a ||fairy tale romance)
Sunday, August 29th, 2004
8:15 pm	Let me start off my saying that i feel like i have been beatin up. I am soo fuckin sore. Me and danmar went camping with Kathy ( danmars roomate) and her family at some lake a few hours from here. It was a lot of fun, besides the whole sleeping on the floor, but i guess thats part of camping. So friday night after we set up all the tents and stuff the fun started. Her parents insisted that we all start our night of drinking with shots of Patron, which was more than fine with me. That was followed by a few Smirnoff Triple Blacks, a couple of Vanilla Vodka and root beers and of course a few more shots. Around 2:30 everyone went to bed. Thats when i made my random drunken call. *** I dont know what it is, but i really enjoy your company. You make me laugh. . .and think when i'm drunk ahaha. I really hated that my phone died cause i could have talked to you all night. I dont know that you feel the same way, but yeah. I cant wait until you get home so that i can talk to you cause i miss hearing your voice. I would call you, but youre at some basketball BBQ and i dont want to bug you. . . so i'll wait.*** Saturday we were woken up entirely too early to go out onto the lake. WE had fun though. I showed them all up on the wakeboard ahahah j/k. . .but i did do pretty well. This morning i woke up soo stiff and sore. I swear i cant bent over or turn my head or even walk without hobbling. Once i got home i took a much needed shower and did two loads of laundry. I'm so proud of myself. It was the first time IN MY LIFE that i have done laundry all on my own. My mom has always done it for me. . .i know i know a little pathetic but oh well. Now i'm jsut watching the VMA's and "attempting" to get some of my reading done. . .but i dont think its gonna happen. Current Mood: hopeful Current Music: VMA's baby! (6 said this is a ||fairy tale romance)
Friday, August 27th, 2004
2:43 am	I jsut got home, or to my room. Tonight was pretty gay. There was a frat party, but as we were on our wat there we got acall saying ot was broken up....so we just make a trip to the good ol liquor store and bought some "stuff:" then we went tp Blockbuster. We rented TAking lieves with Angolina Jolie. My fucking god she si THE sexiest thing on earth. . .anyways since we were drinking aznd we had random people stop by the room i only actually watched like 20 mins or it. . .oh well. So this guy john came up to the roonm and told us to go doen to Perry's rooom with him. It was rpretty boring there too so after i finished my drink i made my way back to my room. . .and now i am here babbling on and on. . but fuck it Tomorrow i dont have any classes sp my ass can sleep as late as i want All night i kept texting "someone" but they never answered me. . .whatever its cool, i guess, i get it goodnight everyone </3333 Current Mood: drunk Current Music: nothing cause my roomate is sleeping (3 said this is a ||fairy tale romance)
Thursday, August 26th, 2004
2:12 pm	College girl So yesterday was the first day of school. My sociology class at 10:30 seems pretty cool. The professor is really young and nice. We only have 3 exams and 3 papers all semester AND the best part is there is NO midterm OR final. hell yea. A bunch of us went to lunch in the DC. The food isnt too bad. . .some things are sorta iffy. . .but the salad bar never fails. There this guy Dennis from Germany. Man oh man is he a strange one. Then at 3 i had my public speaking class. That class absolutely terrifies me. Public speaking is seriously like my number one biggest fear. . .in life. The professor seems alright though, at least from what i could tell. You can barely understand him. He's this little Asian man and he jsut got back from spending like 3 months in Asia so he english is far from great. Fuck it, i at least can be understood so right there i'm ahead of him. I think we have to do like 5 speeches throughout the semester. We'll see is i survive. So around 6 me and Danmar headed over to the Event Center which is like right outside our door, for our HANDBALL class. Now you would think that it would be joke class. . .but let me tell you, it was far from it. Our instructor is some 86 year old handball award winning pro and he is fuckin serious about it. Gramps even made us stretch even though we werent gonna play. I'm not too sure he's all there if you know what i mean. Supposably he's gonna turn all of us into pro handball player. . .we'll jsut see about that. Then after hearing about how exciting handball is for two hours we had to go to a hall meeting for an hour and a half. Fuckin gay. Later i got a call from some cocky Italian named Jenel ahaha. We talked for about an hour. She makes me laugh. Then my phone decided to die. Soo i went to bed. Today was my second day of classes. I had English which seems like its gonna be pretty damn hard, and my Men and Women in Society class which seems interesting. We'll see. . . Current Mood: overwhelmed Current Music: The Format~ "Give it Up" (3 said this is a ||fairy tale romance)
Tuesday, August 24th, 2004
8:40 pm	I've been pretty busy these last couple of days. We're trying not to waste these last few days of summer. It sucks we get jipped this year. . .but i guess we make it up at X-mas. i think we get like 5-6 weeks. Anyways. . . SUNDAY night me, Danmar and Cathy went to Cathy's house for a home cooked meal. My fucking god it was soo good. We had pasta and chicken and salad. . . definitely a well-needed break from school food. . .and we havent even been eating it for very long. After we ended up jsut drinking in Danmar and Cathy's room with robert. We were able to find a liquor store that would sell to us, its right off of campus. . . let me tell you how nice it is to have two friends with fake ID's. So we attempted to watch Animal House, but we all seemed to be a bit preoccupied. Around 11 Evan, Kye, Bryan, Jermaine Dupree's twin and some other guys came by the room. Fight Club was playing for free at midnight and some place right up the street, but by the time we all walked over there it was 12:30, so like always we missed it. Oh well. MONDAY night there was a dance in the DC. Other than being hotter than hell it ended up being pretty cool. Not like i have a problem with it. . but seriously it seems like my whole school is black.. . .after the dance me and danamr were in Dominique, one of the RA's room jsut talking and we almost got written up cause i guess we were being loud and it was "quiet hours" but whatever we got out of it. TODAY my lazy ass didnt get out of bed till like 11:40. Then jsut as i was about to take a shower the damn cleaning lady went in and wouldnt let anyone in. Later me, Robert, Danmar and Cathy went and watched Napoleon Dynamite. It was one of THE stupidest but funny movies ever. Then we went and grubbed in the DC. Now i'm trying to get all my shit together for the first day of classes tomorrow. I'm a little nervous. My 10:30 Soc class should be fine, but i'm terrified of my 3:00 Comm class. Public speaking is by far my biggest fear. But fuck it i have to gt it over with. At least me and Danmar have that class together. Then at 6:00 me and Danmar have the BEST class ever HANDBALL. I know all of you are jealous. Oh yea I want to wish my friend Jenel a HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY!! Its so on when i get home. xoxo Current Mood: nervous Current Music: Family Guy (3 said this is a ||fairy tale romance)